I searched deep within me
I opened up all the doors of my emotions
I wanted to cry, letting the water flow
I examined myself, wondering why I wanted to show strength
When in fact I was crumbling inside
It was not the lack of emotions
They were boiling inside like a river in fury
I was sad and angry and wanted to argh…..
Yet when I think of you leaving, sadness shadows my heart
At the same time, I wanted to be happy for you
But deep down, I was praying
Praying that you will not go
I’m dubious; bitter/sweet feelings crippled my soul
I was trying to reach, but I realize you were too far from me
We’ve known each other for more than 4 years
Our memories were endless
We had our highs and lows, but our friendship endured
There were times I wanted to strangle you
Rolled my eyes at your attitudes
Hugs you when you acted the sweetest
Pat your so-wanna-be afro hair
Lay on your shoulder or purposely getting you mad
Only to make you laugh afterwards
Yes, we have good memories
I’ll say awesome memories
But now you are leaving
All I can do is to watch with a sad eyes
I worried about you even if I don’t appear so
All I want is the best
I know I should be happy for you
But I wouldn’t be a good friend if I were to say I am
I know of your decision and I respect it
I will always remain that friend by your side, if you would allow it
An unfallen friend whose goal is to make his friends laugh.
Claire Bijou, Port-au-Prince 4-28-2015
